Thank you so much for your patience; your understanding; your love. Please accept my apologies at my behavior. I cannot say that I am in a function of any pragmatic processes of equilibrium. Ironically, it is not at all that I am unhappy or even perplexingly anxious. But, I am desperate. Very, very desperate. And that desperation, therein, lies quite the peril which stands precariously close to what I can onlly herein placate as disaster, in being annexed to that of utter destruction.
I make no promises or declarations and I right now disclaim statements that I may not be able to follow through with.
Family, I am starting something called Autism Accomodation. If you’re new, I am diagnosed with Autism. I just turned 35. I am an Autistic adult. You don’t necessarily have to take my word for it, but life is Hell. My childhood was Hell. I live in Hell. Hell is more fun. Everywhere I hear screaming. All the time I want to scream. I live in perpetual Hell. Dante needs to rewrite: Inferno is paradise; he didn’t even remotely come close. Living as an adult with Autism is utter Hell.
I was denied disability; both state and official. I was denied everything, and it is now my obligation to work. But, I can’t. I’ve already worked in the workforce and I couldn’t stand it; it could not be sustained. I am disabled; handicapped. I’d rather be a blind AND deaf parapleagic dying of cancer than an adult with Autism in a world that provides absolutely nothing.
Having been laid off my last job, having worked my way up that ladder to a great job for one year, to have it all thrown away in one swift stroke, my wife and I have decided to go into business for ourselves. My loyal readers, my family and partakers of the pains and turmoils of the Autistic community for whose resources are drowned in useless movies like The Good Doctor and squandered in nothing more than a hypothetical “cure” for an already systemic and mutatingly occuring dissorder by which so much more good can come out if this world would begin to do something it should have been doing for nearly 50 years: accomodating.
My wife and I are now YouTubers. Our channel is called Keeping up with the K’s. I’m sure you all have a fairly good idea behind the mechanics of being a YouTuber: you film, you post and if you meet the prerequisits, you can have your channel monitized. Family, beloved, the links for which will be placed in this entry will lead you directly to me and my wife’s channel. May I be so obliged as to have you subscribe? I don’t wish to sound desperate. I do not wish to give of too much of a pleading disposition. But, the fact of the matter is we need at least 1,000 subscribers and 4,000 of accumulated watch time in order for our channel to become monitized. I will say that as for the roof which remains miraculously over our heads, by the grace of God it is still there; and that of our quite understanding landlord. But, business is business and it’s getting pretty thin. Family, you guys have been so awesome and I feel totally blessed to be able to, in a sense, ramble and rant (often enough) to about 80 people who seem to understand what having Autism is like or what it is about and why our “tantrums” in all forms and functions are the affect of the cause of sheer over stimulation. Moreover, as you visit our channel, you wont be getting some lame content. My wife and I go do fun things, give you a little or I hope a lot of laughter and fun! We love to love. I love my wife. We pray earnestly for children. We seek a home of our own. We work very hard to present our veiwers with great content. So, be our family and give us a sub!
Also, family, readers, this outlet of mine I intended for pretty much naught more than a writing platform that I could communicate to wonderful people absent of harsh hatred or discrimmination. Now, this little corner of the Internet for which you all have so graced upon me by following and reading has grown into nearly 100 people who have shown interest in a man who is very, very simple: I love God. I love my wife. I love everyone. I seek to deliver beauty. I am an artist. I want to be happy. I want children so badly and I absollutely want to raise them with opportunities, saftey and resources that they can pass on this very same love and affection for beautiful and wonderful people like you; reading my post; my journel; my blog.
I’m going to also leave a link to a video a college student performed upon me a while ago. I would have given it sooner, but she put my name as Daniel, not David lol….
Family, I love you all so much. Take my word that it is exceptionally difficult for me and my wife as we bite our fingers to the bone in prayer and hope. Give us a subscribe and help us, please, to get our YouTuber monitzed. By the way, my wife’s disability was also denied. She suffers from chronic acute anxiety. This dissorder literaly impedes working and she is thusly unable to. And now we still have no help from the government.
Guys, family, I say this next part with the heaviest of hearts… I have a Go Fund Me account. Yes, you heard it right. Do you know why I have this account? This account is so that I can buy food for me and my wife. This account is so that I can pay our electical bill. This account is so that our car remains a usable car because it needs break pads and an oil change. Gas is needed too. You all have been so loving enough to like and follow my words and my blog. Be so loving as to subscribe to two people who are in the market for you; their family. We just want to film some cool, awesome or some silly videos to brighten your day. So, then, if you can find just even a little grace in your heart, follow the link to my Go Fund Me account and give a family some little bread; a donation that will keep us from become homeless.
Family, I don’t exagerate. We might become homeless… please… as I can barely see as tears fall; as I type this on my 15 year old iPad 2 using the Internet at a Starbucks with a black coffee from a gift card given on my birthday. Family, you are all beautiful enough to listen and read. Be beautiful enough to show a man whose just trying to do the right thing and who loves God and his wife, his beautiful, beautiful wife, and who would be so happy to give you the gifts God gave him in the form of books, music, art and YouTube videos that would make you laugh or even inspire you!
I love you so much family. It’s getting to a point, that’s all. I love writing in here. Even though it’s kind of far between each post… that’s just how hard I’m working. I’m actually on the corner in a parking lot in front of a wallmart playing the violin for tips. It helps, but…
If you all, family, can help me out, I’ll post a clip of me playing out there 🙂
I love you all so much. And, family, my wife and I could use a little help. Thank you all so much. I truly wish I could meet you all. Maybe some day I and my wife will. I really would like that. It could happen…
Love you all and God bless.
-The Giver of Words.
Annotation: I don’t have a link to the Go Fund Me account, but it is called: Kindness for the K’s. Can’t miss it. Thanks so much!! Here’s the link to our channel. Bes sure to subscribe! God bless, family. Love you! YouTube: Keeping up with the K’s